01.31.08
Thoughts from the Frustrated and Emotional…
LORD Jesus, Pull me into your arms-into your arms-I know you hear my prayer take me deeper LORD. Thank you that you hold my hand and embrace me-LORD, I need your touch, I am not sure if I can go on. I have no strength. I need your love to pull me through this day. I trust in you although I struggle as I face the challenges you have placed before me. You are my help and you will sustain me. Thank you that I can cast my cares on you and you will never let me fall. Show me what steps to take every day. Show me how I can best love and serve those around me. Help me to look up and stop looking down and around. Keep me out of your way. From the mountains to the valleys, and everything beyond, you are God, Most High. You care so much. You love so immeasurably, you are my Almighty LORD. I will praise you all of my days, in the good times and the bad. I long to walk before you in the light of life and I am so glad I can because you are always with me. I Love you so much. Amen.
01.30.08
I Need to FOCUS FOR TODAY!!!
I need to…
Fully rely
On
Christ’s
Unlimited power,
Sovereignty and Strength
Freely trusting
On Him and His
Reasoning for things
Totally surrendering
One
Day at a time
And
Yearning for more of Him!!!
LORD, I am like an olive tree~Oh so high I go, but not higher than you, no, not even close~I flourish in your house O God~in your presence each day as I trust in your unfailing love for me~I will praise you for what you have done; for your name is good. I will praise you in the presence of your saints. LORD, lead me where you want me to go~teach me what you want me to know~let me say what you want me to say~AND LORD, keep me out of your way everyday~I Love You, Amen!!!
01.28.08
Power
The howling wind has power, so much so, that it woke me up last night. I don’t know what it is about the wind during a storm that is so creepy. As I lay there half asleep, I was thinking, why am I so afraid of the howling wind? Although it may have power, and lots of it, God created that wind, and He is so much more powerful. There is no reason for me to be afraid of the howling wind during a storm, if God, the creator of the wind protects me through it all. If God has the unlimited power to control the howling wind, then how much more should I trust His power to work in my own life as He makes me who He wants me to be. How much more should I trust His power in every situation whether it is apparent to me now or not. Therefore, His power gives me unsurmountable peace because He is in control and I do not need to be afraid because my hope is in Him.
01.27.08
Push Yourself
Push yourself
farther
beyond the limits
your mind
places on you
Push yourself
deeper
than you would otherwise go
Push yourself beyond the limits
because then you know
that He is right there
carrying you through
Push yourself
out of your zone of comfort
because
He gives you that extra strength
when you begin to think that
you have pushed that far
Push yourself
into challenges
because
they make you grow
in more ways
than one
they help you to see
that the limitations
we place on ourselves
only hinder
what we have the opportunity
to become
because He had it planned
He had it purposed
from the depths of who He is
before time began
so, do not be afraid
to Push harder
to push farther
to push deeper
because He cannot be limited
neither can what He can do
in and through you.
“He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6).”
01.26.08
Truth!!!
Trust in the LORD! He will fight for you, you need only to be still and know that He is God!
01.21.08
Last Night…
Last night, instead of sleeping for the majority of it, I cried and I think I cried more than I have ever cried in my life.
I was overcome with emotions, with discouragement, and the inability in confined corners to sit and and cry as I wrote it all out. I didn’t want to disturb the people I was with who had entered into the deepest of sleep.
So, I lay in bed crying as the clock slowly counted the minutes. Discouraging thought after thought plagued my mind. I wished the morning would come soon. I wanted to be anywhere but the place where I was.
I woke up, feeling rested, however, I still wanted to cry cry and cry until I was all out of tears.
Then, I was finally able to write and read the only book that would give me any consolation. I felt better. He reminded me as He always does to rejoice always, pray without ceasing, and in everything give thanks—to be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.
My tears started to dry as I recalled that the only way to battle discouragement is to be thankful and praise His name at all times. I resolved to do this today.
It hasn’t been easy, seeing that I still want to cry cry and cry some more, but He has held my hand and embraced me through it all. For this I am thankful.
I am thankful for the ability and endurance to run long distances at any time, it felt so good to run on the beach the last couple of days.
I am thankful for being able to support my brother swimming this weekend.
I am thankful for the amazing friends He has placed in my life who will always be there for me no matter how physically apart we are—cause we are always close, so close at heart.
I am thankful for my three brothers and phenomenal sister in law.
I am thankful that I have grown up with two parents who have always supported me in all I do.
I am thankful for my dad’s wisdom, patience, and constant advice.
I am thankful that there is no need to be anxious or worried about anything.
I am thankful for the ability to write.
I am thankful for this time in my life.
I am thankful for the job he has given me in reaching out to kids through teaching.
I am thankful for my future husband—cause I know God is in the process of preparing us for each other.
I am thankful for the majestic and powerful nature of my God.
I am thankful that He is Faithfully in Control and I can Trust His ways.
The list goes on and on, I am so glad that I can praise Him through whatever storm I am going through. The only thing is: I have to actually do it!!!
01.19.08
Reflections on Relationships
In relationships there is a process. A godly man or woman must wait as long as it takes for God to bring them that compatible godly person to have and to hold until death do they part.
A woman who strives to be godly must be committed to God as Ruth. She was hard-working as she diligently sought God. She was a woman of noble character who was well-known for her integrity.
A man who strives to be godly must be committed to God as Boaz. He provided protection. He lead her in the way that she needed to be led. He loved her and would do anything for her.
They were made for each other. This is God’s design for relationships plain and simple.
01.18.08
Victory!!!
He holds victory in store for the upright and takes them into His countenance. Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning. Thank you for your victory, LORD. Thank you for the peace that overwhelms my soul when I am victorious through trials, help me to continue to rely on your strength, it’s not over yet. For you are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. I Love you, Amen!!!
01.17.08
Types of Kids:
Resilient kids realize their full potential. They have dreams and aspirations and go for them with full force. They believe in themselves, and others believe in them. I guess you can say these are the easy kids to teach.
However, some kids genuinely want to do the right thing, but do not know how. These are my more difficult kids, my whole class. They will often wind up in trouble all the time until they learn. They need someone in their lives to encourage and believe in them; to speak the truth in love to their very being. They need someone to show them the way. This is the majority of kids in today’s public schools. This is why I am motivated as I strive to be the best teacher I can be. I want to reach the kids I teach where they are at and help take them to where they aspire to be. Sometimes I wonder how the heck I am doing this, but every day I do the best that I can and learn so that somehow and in some way I will reach them. This is the frustrating, yet honest part of teaching but in reality, it is why I became a teacher.
When these kids realize their dreams, there is no stopping them. They will accomplish more than they could ever have possibly imagined. I have both types of kids in my sixth grade class this year, both have so much potential, and I need to pray for them daily because they need it so much. They are also found in all elementary, junior high schools, and high schools from San Diego to Kerman and beyond. They can do anything they want to do when someone believes in them. They will live their dreams one day.
I pray I can do my part as a teacher. What else can I do, LORD, when they do not listen to me? What do I do when I plan and contrive and pray without seeing the results, when all I see is chaos? I won’t give up, but LORD, what else can I do? I will do anything, I will stop at no cost because these kids are worth it. How do they not see that I care? How do they not feel it? How can I make them see and feel the love I truly have for them and yet not let them get away with mischief at the same time? What can I do, LORD? Help me to keep going, keep running the race and not give up. I need you, you will make it happen. You do all things through me. You will be with me. You strengthen and help me, you uphold me with your righteous right hand. Help me reach them where they are at. Thank you for this opportunity LORD. Thank you for your favor and for giving me everyday to make an impact. Help me not to just be looking forward to the next break like everyone generally does. Give me more focus, I need it. I need to persevere. Help me to reach them, reach them through me, LORD; with you I will be victorious. You are my all in all. I love you. Amen.
01.16.08
Sometimes I Cry…
Sometimes I cry on nights like these
I am so overwhelmed with things
I need a way to break free
I need to feel the embrace of my Savior
who saves me in every way
a person an be saved
Sometimes I cry
when I am alone
and loneliness is not what I want to feel
but it draws me near to Him
to the One who is always
there beside me
to comfort and to heal
so that I can comfort and
feel with others in their
time of need.
Thank you that I can cry
Thank you for my tears
Thank you for emotions
that draw me to your heart
Thank you that
weeping may endure for the night
but joy comes in the morning!!!